Smoking is not just a physical addiction, it's psychological warfare.
It's hard to comprehend why I've lied to myself for so long and ignored the science....as though I'm exempt from the consequences. I know the health risk...I think we all do. There's plenty of data and some of us have family members that are part of these statistics. I've seen the smoking commercials, they're scary.... It made me wonder if I would let them use me in a commercial, if it would help others.
Since getting my script for bupropion, I've gone through a battery of test to see where I stand physically...because I needed to know. It's not easy waiting for results.
I started taking bupropion about a month before my quit. I had no quit date, I was just giving the bupropion a test drive. During this time I cut back to 10 smokes/day for the next 3 weeks and then set my quit date.
Prior to my quit, I attended a smoking cessation meeting. They met at the hospital....in the cancer center. Yeah...
I spoke with a radiologist who sat in on this meeting and learned that if you have a long smoking history, a low dose CT scan is covered by most insurance providers and can see what a standard chest x-ray can not. Right now, my quit is fear motivated.
I QUIT during our vacation, using the 21 mg patch/bupropion combo. I thought it was a good plan because; I had no established smoking areas, the days were full of activities and I was able to sleep in or go to bed early. My personal support group was trapped in MY QUIT. I didn't tell them what I was doing till day 3... <evil grin>
May 2019 - It's May and we're on vacation. Quite different than our October 2018 vacation, when I quit. I'm learning to relax without smoking and have no intention of repeating the emotional and physical withdrawal that I've gone through so far. So for those who want to believe, "it may take several quits before your forever quit"... It's your choice.
I love "My Quit"!
Celebrated 2 Weeks Smoke Free~ stumbled onto QuitNet while reading about my quit!
Celebrated 4 weeks Smoke Free! Step down to 14 mg patch Official
1 Month Smoke Free on 11/2/18 (32 days) I can't believe it!! Woo! Hoo! Celebrated 6 Weeks Smoke Free! Step down to 7 mg patch and began the bupropion weaning process
Celebrated 7 Weeks Smoke Free - Low Dose CT Lung Cancer Screening Celebrated 2 Months Smoke Free 12/2/18 - No more NRT Celebrated my first smoke free: Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years ~ It feels great! Celebrated 3 Months Smoke Free 1/2/19 Celebrated 100 Days Smoke Free 1/10/19 Celebrated 4 Months Smoke Free 2/2/19 - struggling with chemical rebalancing (can't sleep, night sweats, emotional roller coaster)
Celebrated 5 months Smoke Free 3/2/19 (sleeping better, no more nights sweats, the emotional roller coaster continues)
Celebrated 6 months Smoke Free!
Celebrated 7 months Smoke Free!
Celebrated 8 months Smoke Free!
Celebrated 9 months Smoke Free!
Celebrated 10 months Smoke Free!
Celebrated 11 months Smoke Free!
~ Celebrating 1 YEAR Smoke Free ~ Woo! Hoo! ONE YEAR SMOKE FREE
I'm celebrating every milestone along the way FREEDOM is a commitment ____________________________________________________
~EMOTIONS ~ A repost from the old library
From summerbear on 3/21/2007 5:56:00 AM
The quit process has been described as a roller coaster and that really fits.
When you go to an amusement park you see all the roller coasters and the hills look so high and the loops are there and you can see what you are getting into ahead of time. Maybe you decide that roller coasters aren't for you after all or you go ahead and get in line.
The Quit-coaster is different. It's like there is a giant wall between where you get in the car and the rest of the ride. On this side of the wall you're a smoker and then you go thru that little door with "I QUIT" over it and you stop smoking.
It's a roller coaster that you don't get to look at till you are buckled in and the train is in motion. You know there are going to be hills and dips but you don't know where. There may be spins and sudden corners ahead and you don't know if you will be able to do the whole ride.
You see people around you jumping in the cars and looking happy and others who are really scared. You see some people coming back out that door they went in thru, maybe looking ashamed. You see some of them climbing back into the cars to try taking the ride again. You see others who run away and keep on running. You see the other people coming out the exit way over there with big smiles on their faces and you want to join them but you are scared. You know the only way to get to the exit is to take the whole ride.
You screw up your courage, maybe have a friend that is willing to go with you and you climb in that car and go thru that little door. Maybe you have gum or patches to help you stay in the car, maybe you are going CT and just hang onto the bar with your bare hands.
The really crazy thing is, no 2 people get the same ride on the Quit-coaster. Some people go thru that little door and have a couple little bumps and they are at the exit almost before they got on. Other people go thru that door and do humoungous hills and deep valleys and get thrown from left to right and even hang upside-down for days. The nicodemon is riding with them and trying to pry their fingers loose from the bar. They scream and cry and hang on for dear life. Some fall out of the cars and you see them running back to the door they came in cause the way to the exit is blocked.
You get thru the first bumps and things start to smooth out and you think the exit is near so you relax a little and then a sudden spin takes you up another hill and down you go and you hang on tight to your NRT's or maybe they fall out of the car and you are doing the rest of the ride alone. You hang on cause there are still people falling out of the cars and going back to the beginning.
You hang on cause you want to go out the exit door. Whether it is pride that keeps you hanging on or necessity or just the desire to never take this ride again, you hang on and stay quit. You have friends out there that are yellingencouragement to you as you go and they help you keep your grip.
Things start to smooth out more and you can see the exit ahead of you. There are some little bumps but all of a sudden, you are pulling to a stop and the car is dumping you out. The sun is shining and you have this huge smile on your face. You are an EX-SMOKER! You never have to take this ride again as long as you keep your quit.
If You Don't PLAN To Succeed ~ You Will Fail
Stay connected to the Q-munity and take the time to encourage someone along the way.